Let me tell you about my week.
Thursday.
*Deep sigh* Why are we here, God? My heart is longing for family. It's raining. Delia is growing so fast, and did I mention it's raining? What are we even doing? Are you sure it's here that we're meant to be?
I have got to clean this flat.
You want to nurse? Ok, come here Sweet Baby. ERRRG!
I have got to call about this lip tie! I can't take it anymore. Another plugged duct. Where will the money come from though? What should we do, God? Are you SURE we should be here? Oh, it's raining.
I miss family.
Maybe we shouldn't be here.
Maybe we shouldn't be here? Ugh...
I can't sleep.
Friday.
"Yes, I need to make an appointment for a lip tie revision." "Thank you, yes, I can pay the deposit!" (Hallelujah, God you provided that! Thank you for our friends who just gave us the money specifically for that!) "It's how much on the day? Blimey!" *deep breath* "Well, actually, let's wait. Thank you. Yes, I'll call back to confirm with the deposit later."
It's raining again.
God, why are we here?
Nick, do you know why we're here? Should we be? Maybe not. PRAYING!
*Load on my shoulders crashes to the floor*
I really need to clean this flat.
Seriously? Rain again?
Not much sleep. Thinking.
Saturday.
Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done. On earth as it is in Heaven. That sounds so nice. Come on.
Lovely, a bit chilly, going next door to make elderflower cordial with my precious neighbour,
car ride, Aldeburgh.
"Dog! Ruff Ruff!", "Yes, that's a dog! Ruff Ruff!", burger and chips, "Bird!", "Ok, momma can nurse you.", I can't wait to get this lip tie taken care of! Seaside, stones and precious family, how big the sea is!
Thank you for Nick and Delia! Oh, what a beautiful day. Car ride, sleeping baby.
Rain? Oh well, at least we're inside now.
Forgive me God. It's not about me.
Goodnight.
But really. Why are we here?
Can't sleep...that horrible song from middle school, "Should I stay or should I go now...." over and over. and over.
But this flat is a mess!
Quiet Sunday night. Sleeping baby. Cup of tea. Nice...Oh crap, I'm meant to do the story for Little Lights (D's playgroup) tomorrow! Jesus Storybook Bible, what have you got for me? *flipping through pages*
Ok God, what story should we tell?
Oh, this one has nice pictures! "How to pray" (from Matthew 6).
"'But it's not because you're so clever, or good, or so important, that God will listen to you. God listens to you because he loves you. Did you know that God is always listening to you? Did you know that God can hear the quietest whisper deep inside your heart, even before you've started to say it? Because God knows exactly what you need even before you ask him,' Jesus told them."
Brilliant, but perhaps not quite right...but maybe another time when I have more prep time. Yes. Brilliant. *flip* "The Singer" (from Matthew 6, 9, and Luke 12). Brilliant! I need a snack. (Oh, Lord, who am I?-I just pronounced 'banana' like a Brit...again.)
"Jesus said, 'you are more important than birds! More important than flowers! The birds and the flowers don't sit and worry about things. And God doesn't want his children to worry either. God loves to look after the birds and the flowers. And he loves to look after you, too.'...'Jesus knew that God would always love and watch over the world he had made-everything in it-birds, flowers, trees, animals, everything! And, most of all, his children."
Hmmm...I think I ought to read that again.
Rain. Rain. Oh good, the flowers are really loving all this rain.
Sleep.
Monday.
Little Lights. Storytime. Lovely.
I really need to call and confirm that appointment for D's lip/tongue tie revision. But we don't have enough cash!
Yes, I know You provided the deposit...but...
"Yes, hello, I have the deposit payment ready." Done. Booked. Oh, hello, Uncertainty.
Rain.
"Did you know that God is always listening to you? Did you know that God can hear the quietest whisper deep inside your heart, even before you've started to say it?"
Rain.
We're here. Somehow. Ugh...
"you are more important than birds! More important than flowers! The birds and the flowers don't sit and worry about things."
Homemade elderflower cordial with my neighbours. God, thank you for my neighbours. They are really on your heart, and you've put them on mine. God you really know what you're doing don't you. Have you ever tasted anything so lovely?!
Sleep.
Tuesday.
Stuff. Meeting. Chat. SomeOne says something about Jesus warning the people about doing good things to be seen by others. My ears perk. You know the verse? Your reward will be their praise. If that's what you're seeking, then that is your reward. You've got it. Done. Rewarded. However, if you do good in secret. It's God that will see it, and it's He who will reward you. Right. I wonder where that is in the bible? Game, set, match!...but I don't like tennis.
Are you serious? They want to raise our rent. And pay what? Admin fees to sign for another year? Seriously? Ugh. Money. I can't believe it's been almost a whole year in this flat. Thank you for providing this flat. I guess you do that. Provide.
Oh, and it's so nice and clean.
SomeOne comes for dinner. Praying! Talking about fasting while eating? Haha. Touché.
More stuff.
Ok, so seriously, are we really meant to be here? God? We will go, do, stay, whatever you want. Forgive us. It's not about us.
Stuff.
Sleep. Wake. Sleep. Wake. Sleep. Wake. (the life of a momma) Oh, my poor nipples. It will be so good to get that lip tie taken care of.
Wednesday.
Today. Rain. Meet to read with fellow workers. Today we're going to read Matthew 6.
*Reading*...are you serious?!...*reading*...this looks familiar...*reading*...Yep, yep, haha yes, ok. Yes. Brilliant.
Cup of tea.
LOTS of reasons to stay here. God you are amazing. You really do listen. Ok. *deep breath*
Chat with friends. You want to give us what? For the lip tie revision? Seriously? Oh man. Thank you!
God? Thank you. Thank you!
Rain.
Oh, the flowers are starting to open!
